Okay first of all, I just spend like half an hour writing this really long blog, then I wanted to try off that new journal skin thing, and it wound up deleting my blog. Thank you so much.
Now what I wanted to say was, that I have been gone from DeviantArt for quite some time now, but I guess this is me returning actually. I have been admitted to a psychiatric ward on-again-off-again for the past four months, which is why I haven't been online or submitting any artworks. It's been a tough ride, but hopefully I wont be going back there for quite some time.
While I was gone I have received TONS of messages and favs and what not, but as you might have noticed I haven't answered or thanked any as I usually do. The reason for this is, when you haven't been online for over four months, messages kinda piles up, and I simply didn't have the mental strength to answer each and everyone of you. Now that I am back, however, I will be answering messages again.

As you might have noticed, I have erased almost every single one of my submissions, only leaving a single digital artwork behind in my gallery. It's not because I'm leaving or making another account or something like that, it's simply because while I've been admitted, I've spend a lot of time sketching and drawing and my style has sord of evolved past what was in my gallery. In short: I couldn't stand looking at my old pieces anymore. I want this to be the beginning of a new era, and hopefully my sweet wathcers and friends will follow me through this.
Now there is that one single piece I left behind, which you can see in my gallery. The thing about this particular image is not that it is any better than the rest of the crap I deleted, artistically wise, it's just that this piece stand for a lot of things that I still do and that I don't want to erase. At least not yet. The Danish ungdomshus still have my full support and it will always be in my heart.
What happens now, is that I will try to start painting again, very slowly because I don't want to fail. I know exactly what I want to paint because I have done nothing but making sketches, and I know the style I want it to be in. My style, my very own. But it still feels very hard to get started, like there's this mountain I have to climb just to open up Corel Painter or unwrap a canvas. I have however made some gentle first steps. I have bought canvas, ordered a crap-load of paint yesterday and I've got some new books about digital painting for my birthday yesterday. I know these steps are tiny, but I still hope it will lead me on to the bigger ones.
Lastly I want to tell you all how much I appreciate your support while I've been gone, I have recieved tons of favs and pageviews and comments, and I love you all for giving me this boost of confidence while in a really rough spot. Thank you all!
Now I guess I can't continue to stall, so I will now fetch me a new cup of coffee, smoke a calming cigarette and open up Corel Painter X, for the first time in more than four months.
Wish me luck!